NICOLAS COLE

Author & Entrepreneur

Another Notebook Complete

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nicolas cole notebook

Starting back in college I have kept a series of notebooks, filling each one with journals, ideas, poetry, short stories, notes, To-Do lists, etc.  When I finish a notebook, I store it away, and then I start another.  It's a good way to keep myself remembering that the act of writing has always been a joyful one—it doesn't have to be this serious act every time I sit down at my computer.  I keep my notebook with me at all times, and as soon as it's done, I feel a sense of accomplishment and growth.  I've filled another chapter of my life.

I started this notebook back in early September, 2014, and as of tonight have filled its last pages. Here are some of my favorite entries:

nicolas cole poem first steps

—First Steps—

I write this for my people,

all the ones who doubted first.

Every voice inside my head

wants his own verse, his own verse.

To be heard is to be loved

and to be loved is to experience—

send to me a flower

for this garden I've been burdened with.

Burdened with?

Burdened with, says my distinct abandoned self.

Ask any other part of me and this garden is my health.

Never do I seek help—

a warrior is my conscience.

Always am I in hell—

one part victim with this nonsense.

Eat lozenges honestly when my 5th chakra burns.

If ever forced to choose something to lose I think my throat would hurt the worst.

Not just a boy in this fear,

it creeps up, up to my ears,

whispers, "You're not enough,"

fingers on keys typing Dear.

To all the friends that I've made on this road

and even friends that I've lost, 

to all the flowers that bloomed in my bed

and storms that I've watched,

know that I spill all my pain and my sorrows—

joyful confessions—

because our memories together

taught me the most important lessons.

 

I give all that I have here.

The door opens.

nicolas cole notebook drawing

Collaborative drawing between me and two friends while at Soho House Chicago.

book plot

I saw somewhere online J.K Rowling's story map process and decided to try it for a section of my book, Confessions of a Teenage Gamer.  It worked well in the sense that it kept the story moving, but all in all it ended up making things feel a bit too mechanical.  I ended up scrapping those chapters.

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—Growth—

Will it depend on me

to instill a routine

that carves canyons in me

as water does to red rock?

Or is my challenge now

to abandon routine

and instead of becoming the red rock,

the free-flowing river.

nicolas cole To Do list

A day in the life: To-Do list.

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—The Work Environment—

I suppose I could read here,

but in the office I am a different Cole

than the Cole at his desk,

much different than the Cole at the gym

or the Cole that goes home

or the Cole with a beautiful girl laying naked in my arms—

I can't be all Coles at once.

 

Doing this keeps me present

and my personalities in order.

nicolas cole time

I found this awesome article a while back about how society's greatest minds—Beethoven, Ben Franklin, Darwin, etc.—spent their time, so I took a hard look at how I spent mine and tried to find places where I could be more productive.  

nicolas cole new notebook


Time to start a new notebook...